When i think about life on a day to day basis, in a realistic sense, i feel so defeated. i think i make my life out to be more complicated in my head than it really is. i guess it's the laziness in me that doesn't want to do anything ever- that having things that need to be done make me feel overwhelmed and stupid all the time. oh and if you haven't been clued in yet i work at a chain bookstore.... the "stupid customer" stories aren't even fun to tell anymore because there are too many of them. it sickens me how many of them there are and every day i walk through those stupid doors and gain more. more knowledge of why i hate 99% of humanity and why i would rather just sit in my room and do nothing and not talk to anyone ever again. it's people that abuse intelligence that make me want to slam my face into a brick wall. those people are everywhere and their breeding.

i'm not dead. and i think that that is the problem right now.