i'm slipping into the monotonousness of daily life post school and post someone. it sucks to feel myself being taken over by this routine that i really don't have any control over. i sleep as much as i can whenever i can. i don't really eat anything anymore. just thinking about how much i've been smoking lately makes me both sick and long for another. yep. today is going to be not good. i just know it. you wait. you'll see. but you won't hear about it from me.