I know that I've probably said this a billion times but I really think that I hate people. I hated people at the concert that I was at yesterday. I hate people that breech the doorway to my room. I hate people who chat it up at work both customers and employees at this point. I hate people who treat me like I'm 2 years old and are actually the ones who spaz out and have temper tantrums. I guess what I'm really sick of is being treated like shit. My family does it. My "friends" do it. My co-workers do it. Fuck everyone. I'm not the punchline of your jokes and yeah, after a while they do start to hit nerves. Thanks. I'm not a machine. I do have a life, so don't punish me for living it the way that I choose to. Just leave me alone. ALL OF YOU.

What all this really does is that it makes me hate myself more than I should. I feel worthless everyday of my life, whenever I'm awake. I shouldn't feel worthless so I put all my hate into you. It's not me that I hate it's you, when really it's all just me. So how about you stay away from me and you'll never see me again and I can finally feel like breathing.