It's funny because I was talking with Margot last night about how I find myself unable to sleep until 3 in the afternoon all of a sudden. I blamed that on school and stress but a peculiar yet familiar thing happened to me today.
I woke up at 3 in the afternoon. I proceeded to stay in bed until around 5 when I decided that I couldn't put off relieving my blatter and satisfying my stupid hunger any longer. Food doesn't do well with me these days. My sour disposition has been horribly affecting every aspect of my life. I don't have the taste for much of anything anymore. It was around 6 that my voice mail decided to tell me about the message that Margot had left on my phone an hour eariler. (my cell phone is really stupid.) I was a good friend today and brought her food while she was at work because she's a sucker with a job and got screwed out of her break. While there I decided to buy the Garden State soundtrack and have been listening to it. It feels good to have the right songs playing. I don't know if this is just me but I get into funks about music where nothing is really what I want to hear- reguardless of whether or not I really like the music in general. Nothing is good enough. Nothing is right. But I'm really liking this CD. My craving for something new and different to listen to hasn't yet been completely fulfilled but I'm working on it and open for suggestions.
Today was better and not really all at the same time. I guess my real problem right now is accepting my pointless life and realizing that I have no choice and that nothing will ever work out the way that I want.
Are you still there? You kept reading this far? You were skimming weren't you. It's ok. I wouldn't have made it this far either.
I woke up at 3 in the afternoon. I proceeded to stay in bed until around 5 when I decided that I couldn't put off relieving my blatter and satisfying my stupid hunger any longer. Food doesn't do well with me these days. My sour disposition has been horribly affecting every aspect of my life. I don't have the taste for much of anything anymore. It was around 6 that my voice mail decided to tell me about the message that Margot had left on my phone an hour eariler. (my cell phone is really stupid.) I was a good friend today and brought her food while she was at work because she's a sucker with a job and got screwed out of her break. While there I decided to buy the Garden State soundtrack and have been listening to it. It feels good to have the right songs playing. I don't know if this is just me but I get into funks about music where nothing is really what I want to hear- reguardless of whether or not I really like the music in general. Nothing is good enough. Nothing is right. But I'm really liking this CD. My craving for something new and different to listen to hasn't yet been completely fulfilled but I'm working on it and open for suggestions.
Today was better and not really all at the same time. I guess my real problem right now is accepting my pointless life and realizing that I have no choice and that nothing will ever work out the way that I want.
Are you still there? You kept reading this far? You were skimming weren't you. It's ok. I wouldn't have made it this far either.
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