I've thought long and hard about deleting this blog in light of recent events in my life. But that was then. I'm not going to allow myself to feel censored in something that I created as a medium for me to well... You read this shit. You know what I do here.

so yeah. Long live the bloody.

It's weird but I don't really feel sad anymore. I mean part of me does, and I think part of me always will. What happened cut me really deeply and though I'll heal, there will always be a scar on my heart (one of many). But I agree that it's for the best. Not like we were going to get married or anything. But see that logic isn't really solid with me. Considering how I feel on the subject of marriage to begin with- thinking about relationships that way will get me no where- and I's gots needs. ugh. I'm done.