It's after 7am and I'm still wide awake. So far tonight I've ate a sandwich, watched 3 movies from start to finish and hid under my covers off and on for about 2 hours. I've drank a glass and a half of water. I stripped down and tried to rearrange my pillows to get myself as comfortable as possible but it has all been worthless. the only thing I haven't done is smoke a cigarette but i just can't bring myself to that... not yet. If I'm still awake at 9 it may come to that.

this sucks. drugs don't help. alcohol doesn't help. what the fuck am i supposed to do? I think there's something sincerely wrong with me.