this feeling that i have inside me is overwhelming. I'm still trying to figure out if it's sadness or relief and the fact that I can't seem to define it right now kind of bothers me. Maybe it's a bit of both.

Today I was hurt in a way that I haven't ever been hurt before. Now I just need to figure out how to grasp some sort of closure on a part of my life that consumed 4 years of my heart. Now I feel hollow and nausious- though I blame that on the bottle of Bailey's that I consumed today.

I have nothing left to say.