I'm not sure how much more I can take. This isn't normal is it? It kind of feels like I want to cry but I'm too numb to let myself actually do it. Numb. That's a good word. I feel numb. Numb is close to dead but I'm not quite there yet. Maybe If I wake up tomorrow to more doors slamming and yelling I'll move past numb to dead. Maybe tomorrow I'll actually be dead.

More drugs. More drugs. More drugs. My only friend in the world lives in a small wooden box.